My Rants

Sunday, August 30, 2009 - :

Bryce.leong mj [:


Life feels great afterall. (:

The sun rose @ 2:48 AM

Monday, August 24, 2009 - :

realisation.

after all the words of anger / frustrations / fear, i've calm down.
start to ponder why more and more of my friends felt that change.
they must have their reasons; i'm sure.
Her. Him. and now She.
Three of my closest friends lost their patience with my change, while the rest might be still trying hard to endure.
I feel different, in an incorrect way.
Why can't i find back the courage to admit that everything was maybe just because of, me.
as well as the love that i used to share with, everyone.
I feel afraid, because though things seem to be normal.. i feel distant from them.

thinking through.


The sun rose @ 5:50 AM

Saturday, August 22, 2009 - :

she was right; absolutely true.
I guess she was correct when she hit that nail, spot on.


When I got hurt.
I planted revenge on everybody around me.
some teachers and most of my friends, plus my family;
gave my shit and unlimited vuglarities.

I'm now the one running away, not being myself.
sitting back to look at everything beautifully, is definitely what i said.
to you it's running, maybe not.

You complained to me because you trust me; you shouldn't have.
&didn't knew i wasn't a listener, until then.

Do i even know what is being remorseful or sorry; no i don't.
and at least i've found a way, so that at least one of us,
which is myself - will feel better. if that's what you think i am.

i ain't gonna make a sound, because somethings are better left unspoken.

ps; You make me sounded like a villain; yes, i am

The sun rose @ 11:10 PM

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Still,I'dfailedtodoso.

I guess i would never be able to forget what happen for the whole of 4years;
To some of them i feel apologetic, and the others its just a matter of time when everything becomes less important and be kept as just memories.

i just wanna, prove myself wrong.

The sun rose @ 1:35 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009 - :

dilemma.

When certain things change, it affects it's surrounding.
Which cause uncertain situations to occur.
From there, you'll have to start to adapt and learn how to move on.
And start to figure out the best choice through all the times of fear.
Being afraid to choose is normal, but being fickle is not.
A lot have happened, i have no time because there are really lots of important things to manage and i don't know which one should come first.
Gawd.

Could i break through this time; in a dilemma.



The sun rose @ 8:58 PM

Monday, August 10, 2009 - :

Starting afresh(:

It's a 4day long holiday and i've spent my time slacking, playing, studying, enjoying.(:
If only we can have such holidays often so as to let ourselves relax a little, that will be superb. >.<
And since i'm so bored now, i decided to post a little and get on with studying later.
It's a fresh start after tiring myself so much by all the pressure life has given.
Can't wait for school to reopen and reach our final peak during the Os.


Give it, one last shot.

The sun rose @ 2:04 AM

Tuesday, August 4, 2009 - :

Its only tuesday and i'm already feeling that tired, both mentally and physically.
I just can't seem to know what is the caused of all this and i don't know what on earth is wrong with me.
Days are just flying pass aimlessly & i so clearly know that my test of how my future will be is gonna hunt me down, soon.
Where's the motivation?
Or is it just me that is starting to get tired of everything, till even computer games bore me.
I so need a break to ensure that i'll find my break through.

wake me up.


The sun rose @ 7:27 AM

Sunday, August 2, 2009 - :

Happy Birthday Jacktoh & Joeldavid! :D

Met the guys up at 11 and travelled to Jack's house wanting to give him a surprise at 12.
Was kindda sorry cause Joel is gonna have his birthday one day later and we couldn't surprise him like all others. >.<
But i guess we've alr gave them both the best we can for once again, last year being in the same school.
Hope you guys loves the present. (:

And Jing remindered me that i have left with 84 days, 1 hour, 45 minutes and 21 seconds to GCE O levels paper one.
Really have to work harder for the remaining days alr.
Gogogogo! (:




The sun rose @ 7:09 AM