My Rants

Friday, October 31, 2008 - :

Today's the 31st of October.
Staring into blank, thinking of how to speak for this day.
I dont know how to explain this feeling i have.
Words cant say what i feel, Songs cant sing what i think.
I had kept all my feelings from the start, so i could grant every wish you had for life.
so that you could enjoy singlehood on our departure. Till this very day,i had this sudden urge to burst out everything. Every thought of you, makes me more assure that i am in love. For the first time ever in my life, i'm so affected by someone. Wanting to protect, concern and care for you. The only one whom is able to allow me to tell myself that if i could do anything to make you feel better, i would. Even if its the most foolish thing on Earth.


I woke up, feeling special. Memories was all over, i couldnt stop myself from tearing.
I realised how much i wanted you to be by myside outta the sudden, i feel lonely. I know i needa pull it through, but i really wanted to do what we used to do before. I put on that necklace we bought together, prepared and left home. To lot one, just to feel your presence. Thats the only way i could make myself feel better i thought. Because i've decided from the start to give you as much as i could, so you could stay happy. Ghost squad, Cooking master, Mario driving. All this made me smile, because it had been a long long time since i touch them. Walking through the paths we used to be, thinking of how touched i was when you did everything because of me. Its just a part of my feelings, there's still lots more hidden inside there which i cant seem to find any words to describe.

Love is be Giving, not Getting.
Thats what you taught me.
Memories are sweet,
Even though there maybe unhappy ones.
I just hope that you're happy.

niiaye, 亲爱的陌生人。

The sun rose @ 12:57 AM

Sunday, October 26, 2008 - :

Its alr coming to the end of october, where school is coming to an end. What am i gonna do in the holidays man. I cant possibly stay at home and sf the whole day or night yea? Its time i really have to put in effort in my studies while enjoying with life. I need a lot of discipline and responsiblity to handle this life i have. I dont wanna end up in the state where i cant even find a job i love in the future and sit down for a job i'm unwilling to do. This holiday is my only last chance to catch up with everything i left behind, and i really must do it. With constant reminder i'm going to put every where to remind to study, this is the first one. My blog, so see this JarroldLim.

STUDY HARD, PLAY HARD, LIVE HARD

ps; Bfam did came back together and everything felt the same. Love them so much!(:
Goodluck in life everyone. :D

The sun rose @ 10:57 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008 - :

Today is ahGong's birthday. so went out to celebrate his 77th birthday at my aunt's house. Its been long since i had a family gathering i can say, and im kinda guilty cause i hardly accompained my family. And my mother had to tell me this occasion one week ago so to ensure that i'll be there. Its kindof ridiculous aint it? rofl, but had fun at my aunt's house spending time with my cousins. haha
The moment when ahGong blew the candle and close his eyes to make a wish, was this year's cutest part i think. ahGong actually put his hands tgt like some teenager wishing for something he really wants. hahas, all smiles on his face. I guess he really enjoyed this day where everyone come tgt just to celebrate his birthday. I guess with every year or maturity, its easier to get on with life and even one celebration from the whole family could satisfy him. Simple and sweet.
Over here wishing my ahGong shen ti jian kang! ahGong wan sui! :D

The sun rose @ 6:57 AM

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 - :

I really aint feeling any good this few days. I'm so insecure with my own life, feeling aches all over my heart every second. Nothing seems to be able to calm me down especially when its in this month of october. where memories were, I just realised i am still so affected by every word you said & everything you did. Its just felt like yesterday was that particular day we parted. I thought i would be able to let go of you, because you would be happier with or without me. And aint that the only want i have, to see you being happy no matter how much it would cause me. JarroldLim, you always knew what you were doing. When everything you did was for her, you'll feel happy to yeah. so i should continue to do that, and i would be happy as well. Girl, be happy yeah.

Love's by giving, not getting- i remember.

The sun rose @ 3:49 AM

Sunday, October 12, 2008 - :

Wahhs. sibei dulan now. Post like that also kena shoot. Sua la hor, i dont wanna post le lahs. Fck up. Fucking Jarroldlim la k? Dont know anyhow post, cheebye him la. _l_ Nabei dumb faggot

The sun rose @ 6:37 AM

Friday, October 10, 2008 - :

Feeling much better now, after yesterday's nightmare. Phew, because of it i didnt have to go for A.E.M. Didnt wish too cause wasnt feeling well in the morning. i guess its a blessing in disguise.

Life's like that yea. God planned everything for you, just to let you know that whether it benefits you in the end. A bad event or memory that happened may be a blessing in disguise as well, just like what happen a moment ago.

Listening to Jielin mei's blog song now, just wondering why the lyrics could keep my mind calm and would make me wanna listen to it again & again. I guess i really love listening to this song so much. hahs.

The sun rose @ 3:21 AM

Thursday, October 9, 2008 - :

Just got back from A.E.M course, was feeling okay at first. But outta the sudden, i felt that my stomache was so so pain. Crap la- i dont even know what was i doing. suuuuper giddy, ran to the bedroom, tried to sleep but i couldnt. Miserable like hell. hais, i guess i kena food posioning larhs, feel like vomitting and all. darn uncomfortable. ):

The sun rose @ 5:34 AM

Friday, October 3, 2008 - :

1.52p.m.
i've missed usage of comp time. Lol. & and i'm super hungry. wonder where the whole family went. Guess go kai kai without me le bahs. hahs.
i'm seriously stonning at the comp[feeling hungry] and dont know what to do with this remaining time. Lols, so might as well post bahs. hmns; i felt kindof stressful this whole week cause of the exams and i hadnt been preparing for it. i know mum has a high expectation for me, but she just dont wanna tell it to me ask i guess she doesnt wanna give me any pressure. Thats why she always ask me to try my best, but i aint doing it man. to be frank, i've been slacking and its kindof making me guilty while stressful when i found out that i had to study so much whenever i start burning midnight oil before the exam. hahs. hmns; but have to thank Jolene larhs, she hor, really can make me laugh outta no where de man. That stupid show she suggested me to watch and the letter, Lols. i did cheer up a lot i guess and its time i gtg study cause its 2pm liaos. ohya, Maybe this post is for her bahs. Thank you and Takecare weakling. ;D

The sun rose @ 2:00 PM