My Rants

Saturday, April 26, 2008 - :

hadnt been really listening to the world just standing beside me.
plugged my earpiece on most of the time.

had been studying this few days but it seems like i needa put in more effort.
half studying, half sleeping. guess its stupid. :X hmns; gotta study way harder later.



The sun rose @ 11:36 PM

Thursday, April 24, 2008 - :

my life's a messed.

After all the things that had been happening to me, i threw it out today during english period.
The pain that i was holding back, the tears i didnt want to shed & and the frustration i have on myself, my life and me. Just like i expected, i had to pay for the price of being rash. My parents came down to talk to MrLiew. I wasnt angry with anyone of them, but instead- i was angry with myself, for making my parents worry. The faces they showed, killed me that instant. i couldnt hold my tears and cried. i know no matter how much sorry i am now or how much sorry i could tell them wont work. Simply because i myself cant forgive me. Guess this life of mine is gonna get more & more difficult for me to live in.
I didnt tell them of my problems, because i knew if the problem was caused because of me. I should handle it bravely myself & i know i can do it- no matter how impossbile it may sound. But i seriously need sometime, to have enough energy to put my problems aside. so that i could at least be Jarrold again, the one which trust that he will never get pull down and focus on things that are more important.

he told me; Let it go, you must learn to.

If God plan for you, he'll make you understand why.

The sun rose @ 3:00 AM

Monday, April 21, 2008 - :

my leg's injury has improvement as compared to the past weeks.
hope i can go play soccer as soon as possible. (:
hao xiang orhs. hahas
will be collecting my xray report on wed i think. hope it will be good. :D
hmns; self studied in school today, still got alot to do so will be chionging for the next few days lerhs. jiayou Jarrold !


The sun rose @ 7:10 AM

Saturday, April 19, 2008 - :

hadnt been posting for the last three days. :X busy studying for the coming exams. :D
aint know why but i'm kindof different towards studying these days, very enthu. hope it doesnt die off that quickly bahs. xD gonna study later too, since the next humanities test is coming. lol
lastly; wish GoodLuck to all friends in higher chinese, for their O's. (: jiayous !

The sun rose @ 7:55 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008 - :

been slacking for the past few days. hahas.
went to the doctor just now. cause the swollen part on my knee had'nt had any progress for the past two weeks. ligament injury is what she said, must have plenty of rest and must not strain too much on my knee, if not if the injury go worse, it may need a surgery. thats if i continue falling. :X LOL, had 2 weeks mc from PE and wont be taking napfa that soon lerhs. guess if i took napfa, i would fail too. i know my fitness is dropping. but i could do nth about it. :X sian sia, have to start over again whn i recover. hope i could take that training i went thru b4 again bahs. (:


The sun rose @ 6:50 AM

Tuesday, April 15, 2008 - :

once i've decide, there's no turning back.
for the first time in my life, i must decide for myself.
i must have faith in my decision whether it would pass or fail.
i am doing this. yes i am. (:
jiayous Jarrold. :D

The sun rose @ 6:26 AM

Monday, April 14, 2008 - :

The week is gonna start again. :D hahas
would be hoping for saturdays and sundays to come once again. cause can slack. (:
hmns; had maths test today, its kindof difficult i guess after seeing so many people dont know how to answer the questions at all. i know how larhs, but dont know correct or wrong, cause hardly had time to finish not even mentioning checking. hope would have some improvements in this test cause really put in effort studying. cross fingers. :/ hahas.
after that when to market with Joel,Jack, Kiat,Edwin,Sarah,YunFang & Lengwei. :D when to have lunch together. hahas. new classmates. LOL
thn pei them for nafa. i didnt take part cause of my leg injury, guess have to wait for another 6 to 9 months for my leg to fully recover. thats what mr chan said. :X sian larhs, which means i cant do anything but walk in these long months. gosh. -.-

nice day. (:

The sun rose @ 6:07 AM

Sunday, April 13, 2008 - :

hmns; just woke up. guess im really tired this feel days bahs.
its been a long time since i could have a nap. but its shiok! :D
didnt really do anything much today- kept slacking.
think im gonna study later bahs, tml still got Add maths test.
i MUST pass. (: failure is a definate no- if not im so gonna kill myself.
hahas.

The sun rose @ 3:17 AM

Friday, April 11, 2008 - :

attended half day of school today.
released at 1 cause there will be speech day in school.
stayed back in class with Joel and Jack. was waiting for Joel to finish his ss work before we could go to lan.
reach at 3 plus. hahas, today's gaming was fun. cause all the laughter, loud-ness and joy managed to cover everything i was worried for. thanks guys. (: its been such a long time since something could keep me distracted. maybe thats what i should do bahs, not get too over with things happening. i aint know. i wanna care, but why? everything will come out negatively. am i with the wrong ppl? confused. -.- wanted peace with all my friends, but still there will be some misunderstandings that will cause quarrels in between. maybe thats life. tired of giving, shall take a rest. :D
zaijian.

The sun rose @ 7:13 AM

Thursday, April 10, 2008 - :

hahs. guess i should be becoming more and more free these days. :/
hmns; ms ng approached me during chinese today. guess i really disappoint her.
but still its the past, im looking forward. not wanting to be sorry over all my mistakes.
because no matter how much sorries you have it wont help unless you changed.
so the best sorry would be done with actions, not words.
Ms Ng said "i could see that you have friends like sarah and kienkiat that will support you, so why are you so frustrated with life?" hahs. this sentence practically got me thinking so much. cause during this four months, i gotta learn more about me mei, sarah yong. even though sometimes she's stubborn or hot temper. i didnt ever want to get angry with her. cause i know there's smth special about her, which could make everyone smile whn they are sad. cry with her or even wanting her to stop crying whn she does. i aint know why am i writting this, but i know i have to. cause i aint wanna see her life get ruined. she have just to believe more. kindof got fedup with her cause she was ignorant towards the care and concern friends have for her, even me. i know i didnt show it out, but dont you think it will hurt whn you just claim that no one concerned for you and assumed we arent true friends? i aint know what to say. there wont be sorry coming out from my mouth to you mei. cause you should know, not everyone could be there for you all the time. ppl will still miss out someday no matter how close the person is to you. i know your life is sucking so bad now you feel like just dying, but do you know how much effort we need to keep trying to hold you up again? even if its just for one second. i just hope that you'll be fine. thats all.

hahas. okays. back to me, everything will be fine in my life i know. cause im the one handling my own life, no one else. (: and thanks for jielin mei for concerning even whn you dont need too. :D stay happy yea !



The sun rose @ 4:21 AM

Wednesday, April 9, 2008 - :

i'm having a heavy downpour in my life.

i'm starting to get really disappointed in myself.
because i took advantage of my parent's trust.
i took everything too easily.
People's feelings, People's faith and People's care.
i should have just kept quiet and controlled everything.
thn i won't be in this mess.
but now i am, i really have to start to put others before myself.
like how i did in the past.
Everything is confusing me up these days, i really should just simply focus on my studies and stop thinking of my past or dreaming of things that are just simply impossible. i should have just go to school to study and make friends, no other more.
i guess i'll shutting up more often now that i need some discipline. so friends, sorry yeah. i'll have to firgure my life before i could be JarroldLim again.


maybe i was too selfish.

The sun rose @ 5:33 AM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008 - :

hmns; i know what im gonna to do.
its just a beautilful dream. :D
adios. (:

its the best to put it down and go as low as possible as everything was just a beautilful dream.

The sun rose @ 10:54 PM

Monday, April 7, 2008 - :

hmns; today's lesson were alright. :D
aint know why but time is flying so fast nowadays.
was still enjoying my weekend and monday came. -.-
but nbm larhs, saturday coming soon lerhs. (:
sounds dumb but its stupid that i'm actually hoping for days to past as soon as possible. hahs
skipped Geography lesson today! :P not because that im huai, but its cause there's soccer match and considering im one of thm, i have to go watch the match even though my knee have not recover. guess this will bring down all my hardwork for soccer bahs, cause i tried kicking the ball today and my right leg was so weak, i could hardly see the ball move whn i touched it. guess i gotta start from scratch. ): pathetic me.

its really time for me to decide what's the best for myself.
i'm falling deeper. :/

The sun rose @ 7:17 AM

Sunday, April 6, 2008 - :

hmns; i'm feeling better but still there's the pain there in my leg. guess i'll be skipping tml's match bahs. but i guess it wont matter anyway cause we're alrd outta the nationals. its seems short though. so gotta work so much harder now for my leg to reccuperate and my training for next year. hahas.
so in love with soccer. (:

The sun rose @ 10:13 PM

Saturday, April 5, 2008 - :

fcuk !
i hate being like a handicapp.
hais, was seriously so scare just now when my knee got the cracked sound just now while i was walking. i fell onto the ground and felt so useless. it sucks. that feeling of being alone when every other ppl is walking perfectly and i cant.
i'm scare. so so so scare. ): its been such a long time that i actually fear smth. someone please, help me. Let my leg heal. i'm still young and i dont wanna be a uselss piece of crap.

im scare..

The sun rose @ 10:13 PM

Tuesday, April 1, 2008 - :

hmns; there wasnt any special event today that happen but there was some interesting one. :/ had assembly attending a sex talk. it was fine and quite informative.
not really enjoying but had a eye opener on the way how the dieseases spread. its gross. :X but really, i think this kind of talks on how to handle life should be given more often. as in not sex talks more often but like how to handle difficult moments in life, how to focus on your goals rather than falling into temptations all this kind of stuffs bahs. hahas

after that jiu walked with kienkiat & Joel to LotOne to buy birthday present for April. (:
see we so good? never delay on her present at all. Not like her, my bdae Feb and she gave me just ytd. lol
but still seeing her emo just now very scary sia.
sit beside me how can emo de!
si April, 15 yrs old liao better be happy everyday hor ! :D
tml thn you'll find out how "interesting" that present we bought for you is.
muahahhas ! :DD

The sun rose @ 4:14 AM