My Rants

Saturday, March 29, 2008 - :

hmns; guess i wont be going out today lerhs. :/
because of my leg. its getting from bad to worst.
its so swollen and pain, i dont even know whether i could walk to sch tml anot. D:
and i cant take part in tml's game lerhs. hais.
but nbm larhs, hope they win lorhs. jiayou cckss. (:

The sun rose @ 8:36 PM

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gosh. i dont know why, but today aint a day for me. ):
went to soccer feeling so good cause i really wanna defeat sport's school on monday's nationals league. but who the hell knows, before training is gonna end- i sprained my leg so bad that i couldnt describe which part of my leg i injured. its so scary to have no feeling of ur leg. its so much painful than the previous one. D: i can barely walk straight and will feel pain if i just move my leg to the left or right a lillte. hais.

but still promise sarah meii and gang to watch shutter so bare with the pain and limp my way there. (: there was so much stuff i thought of. things that i cant say. hahhas. ;D hmns; but still enjoyed today larhs. hehs

its so scary to feel alone when accidents happen.
how i wish you were there,
but i cant hold you back with me
cause ***.

The sun rose @ 5:35 AM

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 - :

reached home at 8pm tonight. was super hungry but still decided to do my history thingy first. finished at 9 and was about to enjoy my dinner. thats what i always wanted to do, just sit down and eat properly everyday. but who knows, there was so little rice. gosh! and im so so hungry. ): so jiu have to bear with it lorhs. finished eating lerhs but im still hungry. sian narhs.
everything that happened today just simply brings my mood down.
i dont know why, but its gonna be tough to get happy once again. ):

The sun rose @ 6:17 AM

Monday, March 24, 2008 - :

woots ! done so much today. :D
starting to enjoy english as a subject. maybe cause of the enrichments today. (:
its seriously so cool to speak proper english as compared to broken ones.
hahas.

came home and was drenched in the rain. didnt know why, but kindof enjoy being under the rain. maybe cause its the only way i can feel peace. hahas. what nonsense? LOL
Done my maths, played some computer games and watched my show.

My Monday. (:

sorry dao-ed you accidently. didnt know how to react cause it was too sudden. :/ sounds stupid, but thats how i was at thn. i didnt know what to do. :X psps


The sun rose @ 7:24 AM

Sunday, March 23, 2008 - :

eh, didnt really did much today larhs. :/
play-ed soilder front and was so furstrated. first time i suck so bad in that game. D:
jiu decided to watch 鬥牛要不要. Who knows that the ep thingy is messed up cause alot of ppl post. Gosh! -.- pissed.
in the end, jiu bear with all the ownage and continued playing s-front. sian

now finding songs. seriously think that my new hobby is to look out for nice songs. (:
thanks Jack for being my free dl-ing guy. :D wahhahs

The sun rose @ 7:13 AM

Saturday, March 22, 2008 - :

hmns; went out with b fam guys and rv group of friends yesterday.
shall not post about it since everyone had done so. lazy you see. :X
hahs. enjoyed what happen yesterday larhs. :D

woke up at 12 today ! daamn shiok ! cause for such a long time i hadnt been pigging in my bed till that late lerhs. realised that its the best thing to do on weekends. so im gonna make myself super tired every friday and sleep late. cause when its sat, i can slp till super late. (: been using the computer since 6, listening to songs and watching drama shows. haven even bathe. :X guess im addicted to the computer lerhs. hahas
should i study later? God knows. :D

music fills my life. i'll die without anyone of them. (:

The sun rose @ 5:27 AM

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 - :

was watching 櫻野3加1. (:
hmns; realised that its really a difficult thing to do to maintain a good relationship with somebody you really love. some ppl would have the trust and love to overcome all the obstacles and become together. but many would just walk away. its kindof a sad thing to go through. :/ dont know leh. its just that whn u start to became a step closer to someone you like, it always will cause a huge change in you and problems will start coming. as much as i envy sweet couples, i'm always afraid of the negative side. when couples lose trust in each other because of things that are so minor or simply just miscommunication.
hahas. didnt know that watch one show also can think so much de. but still, enjoy watching it. :D still have 2 ep i think. gonna chiong and study after that. (:

The sun rose @ 7:05 AM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 - :

had assembly just now. daamn boring lorhs. sian.
hmns; kienkiat went to make his ic so i was alone.
didnt know whr to go so decided to go home cause Jack went to find someone.
and Jeydee went to look for his friends too. all go friends. ): [hahas jkjk, aint sad at all.] (:

came home and continued watching 櫻野3加1. which heidy meii said its not nice! kuku her lorhs ! its nice, everyone dont care her ! go watch go watch. :D
finally ! i go the study mood lerhs! didnt wanna sleep in class today at all even after so many strenous activity. shiok ! :DD
gonna continue watching 櫻野3加1 till 730 and thn go eat & study. (:



The sun rose @ 3:37 AM

Sunday, March 16, 2008 - :

wohooo ! (:
spent my day to the whole. daamn contented and happy.
hahahs. firstly saw my mother whn i woke up, that feeling feel so great.
cause i know my house will feel with laughter once again. ;D
guess what they bought for me? a jacket which rocks and a few polo-tees.
such a blessing to have them with me. i love my family. hehs. (:
i just feel like playing soccer so much that after so long, i finally decided to ask kiat out to plae. at first he told me he cant and was a little sian. cause today is whn i really wanted to plae so much. hahas. but who knows? he called me and say can ler. yay ! hahas. xD thank you for making my day. hah.
reached there earlier thn thm so i join-ed the army crew first cause they lack of one player. ohgod, i'm so pro today. proud of my soccer. (: first time i feel it such an irritation not to sweat. ;X hmns; after that jiu went home and watch 櫻野3加1.
a tear came out from my eye. ;/ its nice ppl ! go watch ! hahas.
its a love drama larhs. with all those sweet stuffs and alot of thing. the sad part was there too. haven watch finish but wanting to watch. hahas. have to pack up my table and start on a new journey of my studies. i haven been putting in effort this 3 mths and its gonna change. :D

The sun rose @ 6:08 AM

Saturday, March 15, 2008 - :

helped kk celebrated his birthday yesterday. (:
he was kindof surprised whn jiaxian walked into pastamania holding a cake. xD
this was all planned by the guys in b fam fam and xian. hope kiat would like it. ;D
was tired and beat cause didnt get to sleep this few days. i just cant fall asleep and i dont know why. insomia? hahas.
but still tried my best to laugh and joke around with those guys. could never find a time to be sad whnever i'm with them. maybe thats why they are my bros bahs. heh.
saw xian and kiat finally getting close to each other again. felt happy for thm. (: they really love each other so hope they could overcome every obstacle and stay tgt. dont run away from every problem. jiayou guys ! hhahas. talking about thm, i realised i was kindof envy of sweet couples nowadays. guess i finally understand whats it like to be really alone. hahas, but who cares? LOL. hmns; and for jack and veron, finally can see that they're closing up again after watching so many movies tgt and even got the chance to see my sister whn watching. haha. let the love in you guys last forever ! seeing jack getting more and more happy everyday really make me more relieve for my brothers. hmns; now its joel and laura, i know how much you guys are in love so dont quarrel that much kay? try listening to what each other have to say in a nice manner and i guess this would really help u guys. (: gene and steph, going to 1 yr ler seh. so after loving one another for one year, please continue being loving hor ! hate to see gene emo, daamn scary. hahas. ;D jeydee ! go find your paspas. hahas. good that u're cheering up so much as compared to the past. xD

The sun rose @ 10:31 AM

Thursday, March 13, 2008 - :

went to lot one to eat my dinner alone just now.
ban mian. (: very long never eat there de banmian ler, but it still taste as nice.
especially the mushroom. ;D

now i realised so what if you're alone? you can still make it an enjoyable outting with yourself, knowing urself better ! hahahs. i'm no longer emo!

thank you;
April- short but caring yea. (:
Seowrong-thanks for offering to jio me out. :D
Heidy meii- didnt regretted accpeting you as my mei. xiexie. ;P

The sun rose @ 11:00 PM

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currently at home alone.
this feeling feels so familar.
an empty house without laughter, quarrel and everything.
its cold here. i'm alone once again.

my parents went to genting for their hols trip but i decided not to go anywhr.
even though my sister didnt go as well but the house is so quiet.
i hate to be alone. maybe its because i will be on myself whn all this happen.
no one would be there for me like it used to be.
kindof emo now. tired of smiling always.

the only thing i could do now is rest and stand up laughing again-
but is this what i want? laughing over nothing.

The sun rose @ 10:33 PM

Sunday, March 9, 2008 - :

woke up at 9.30 today, kindof early considering me sleeping at 2 last night. dont know why nowadays always needa sleep for only 7hrs. and thats enough for my day. guess i'm really getting older lerhs. ;X hahas. yea, spent my day with my friends. went to farjar to plae soccer. realised that my street soccer skills are gone. ): fell down twice and i nearly sprained my ankle. shock i guess. hmns; luckily im fine yea, hate to be injured after i injured myself that previous time. phew. ;D tml can get to go back sch for supp ler. aint know why but kindof happy. maybe cause need not stay at home and rot bahs. hehs. anw, happy 11mth to eugene and steph[he was so anxious whn he was at my house.] last long ! xD

The sun rose @ 7:24 AM

Saturday, March 8, 2008 - :

woke up today not wanting to do anything de. probaly because of the game yesterday bahs. we lose against hongkah after all long match. outta the finals but we're still in the nationals. hahas. should be happy i guess. (:

hmns; remembered that i had to go buy my sch bag as it was torn by eugene. ;X had to do it alone as kk they all not free. who knows, sarah came talking to me and decided to pei her go eat lunch together with edwin and sihao. ;D ate 4.20 on cai fan. guess i really ate alot bahs. hahas. xD after lunch, saw jielin and noelle at cc playing bbasketball. jiu go play oso. long time since i play basketball ler. so daamn sucky. ;/
at about 4 plus, jielin say wanna go home ler. jiu send her home lorhs. sun bian go west mall buy. i choose it and she said it was okay. (: so bought it. didnt wanna waste time. hahas. send her home after that. seriously enjoy so much being with her cause she always will be the one needing me to fu her up. so i'll be much more mature and stop thinking of my past. love HER man ! ;P thanks meii. hehs.

was actually thinking of going home de. and sleep but god knows, sarah meii called !
she asked me to go pei lengwei buy slipper. and i was like, whats it gotta do with me? hahs. feel so weird even though lengwei my classmate. LOL ! but in the end i decided to go there since i had nth to do whn i reach home either. so took the mrt back to dobyghaut. on the ride, i was wondering how should i talk to her? i didnt know what we could talk. ;/ hahas. but yea, something so mircale happened. we actually do have somethings in commom. so happy lorh! got another friend that i can talk too. and its all outta the blue. ;D so thankful. hehs. hmns; bu zhi bu jue de jiu pei her for so long lerhs. she bought a pair of black colour slipper. hmns; suggested her to buy smth colourful. dont know why oso. hahas. but she dont listen to my advice. lol.
send her home later while chatting all the way to her house. hahas. see? i told you have alot of things to talk about. ;DD she's in the same boat with me though. hahas. Lengwei, nice to know you. (:

really enjoyed my day ! thanks to all my friends. they save my day from emo to happiness. :D hahas.

ps; kienkiat, cheerup yea? (: jyjy

The sun rose @ 7:15 AM

Tuesday, March 4, 2008 - :

hmns; since i got into blogger to link MinXuan, might as well post.
i was alone after school today. was really feeling up and downs this days. today in pc, i was asked about what changed my life. and i really gave it a shot. i realised i changed alot after so much things that had happen to my life. yea so decided to play a little soccer to keep my mind occupy. but it didnt helped at all. crap lorhs. i realised i wasnt even focusing on soccer. my mind was running wild even if i looked as if i was playing. i really need to focus on my studies alrd. no matter whats blocking me. cause i flunk myself. sounds dumb. lol.

its still there.

The sun rose @ 3:13 AM

Saturday, March 1, 2008 - :

guess i owe everyone an apology.
im sorry kientkiat.
it isnt you im have anything against, its me.
i guess sometimes i just need to shut.the.fuck.up
so that my friends wont get hurt.
& be a considerate person.
not a selfish guy even if how much it will hurt.
Just need the world, to keep smiling.

with or without. me

im sorry my buddies.
for not being me ever again.

Just keep smiling.

takecare.

The sun rose @ 7:49 PM

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Jielin meii and Manting mei came my house today.
did our social studies presentation slides.
i was bored and wanted to find the infomation and do the slides
but they two meii of mine snatch my work.
sian narhs, really wanted to do cause i'm bored.
and i dont like to be bored. keep turning on my sofa.
& as soon as you know, i was slping.
guess i really didnt want to be awake when i have nth to do.

okay now to what happened today that really pissed me off.
i quarrel with kk just now, feel so angry cause none of thm reached,at the time we suppose to meet.
i dont know why, its just seemed that smth went wrong. he told me that we're suppose to meet at 930. but Jielin and Manting told me it was 11. wtf happen. i really dont know. and dont wish to know. but seriously it sucks. cant he just come before they do? why must everyone wait for each other to come first and be the late one? i really dont understand. what crap is this? so in the end, i have to wait for thm for two three hours untill my meiis came and he didnt. omfg dude. i was do daamn fcuking pissed.
forget it. i dont wanna say anymore. its just pure stupidity. -.-

yea so, was emoing whn they both do the work.

The sun rose @ 7:23 AM