My Rants

Thursday, February 28, 2008 - :

went swimming with my soccer teammates. (:
daamn shiok! have lotsa fun! heh.


i was feeling kindof dumb, but still i didnt know why did i do all that.

The sun rose @ 5:23 AM

Sunday, February 24, 2008 - :

went lan shop with my friends. (: starting to feel bored with cs. must go learn other new game lerhs. hmns; step up 2 is gonna show. watched step up with B fam fam de, so really hope that we can go out tgt to watch step up 2. anyone organise? hahas. miss B fam fam lorhs. the times we had tgt were great. ;D hope that it can come back yet agian. hahs

The sun rose @ 2:56 AM

Saturday, February 23, 2008 - :

occupied my whole day. ;D went for a movie marathon today. i watched all 3 movies in a day, how nice. haha. P.S I Love You , L; change the world and Kungfu dunk. it sent my emotions going in a rollar coaster ride. >.<>
tml gonna have zone-ers against tanglin. think ima not gonna ask anyone to support bahs. its still me& my teammates on the field thats all. shuld focus more. hahas

The sun rose @ 8:40 AM

Friday, February 22, 2008 - :

had a friendly match yesterday. disappointment in everything.
but thank you Jolene for supporting.

somehow, i realised im feeling very weird this few days. i dont know how to explain, but its seriously confusing. i dont wanna think so much ler. hais. its like i start to realise that my life is such a disappointment that i seriously feel like quiting living in it. it sucks so much i feel like breaking down and numb myself. this is crap. i aint know why but it hurts and which no matter how much time given, it will not recover. i'm afraid, very. i seriously need to take what's right rather than what my heart wants.

The sun rose @ 5:02 PM

Sunday, February 17, 2008 - :

hmns; spent my afternoon with kienkiat,jeydee,eugene&joel playing lan. hahas. had so much fun, first time so many people play. so shiok! xD kill dao wan. hehs.
even though, my illness didnt become better. instead, im having sore throat now and its so hard to swallow things. hais. tml still have match sia, how i can i plae. i hope i dont bring the team down. lol. watching magic show now, the magician super lousy. all the tricks he do can see the error de. noob sia. wahhas. ;D still have lots of homework haven do, must finish by today lerhs.

The sun rose @ 4:08 AM

Saturday, February 16, 2008 - :

went to play soccer with Joel, KienKiat, Jeydee & Marcus. (: enjoyed my time with thm even though i had a major leg injury. cant seem to move my thighs which were freaking pain. it look ok on the outside but it feels like a rock rubbing on my bones. painpainpain. ): i realised i'm getting sick again. D: i hate being sick! i dont have the energy to do things and my mind will start thinking and thinking of the negatives. i dont want to make myself sad, i wanna get well soon!

someone please take away my sickness- so i'll be able to be me again.

The sun rose @ 3:57 AM

Friday, February 15, 2008 - :

wahhhhh!! my leg daamn pain. ): had a collision with my soccer teammate thn now my muscles are aching. it was pure stupidilty.
haven have my dinner yet, hungry. hmns; aint know why, i feel so much better today. (: im full of energy again. hehs. ;D chao pro de lorhs.
sian narhs, sf cant plae. dont know why. stupid lagging. -.-
shall have my dinner bahs. (:

how i wish that everyday is a happy one. ;D

The sun rose @ 3:54 AM

Thursday, February 14, 2008 - :

today's valentines.

somehow i decided to laugh it through. guess my life wont be perfect, but still i have to live on.

started the day without wanting to go to sch at all. cause i know that it would be hurting in someway. seeing all the couples together, smiling and confessing how much they loved each other. i seriously envy you guys. cherish your loves one ppl ! (:

kindof sick now. mentally and physically. ): hope i can get well soon. jyjy! ;D

The sun rose @ 4:49 AM

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 - :

cckss vs grss. 2-1, we won. (:

started my day with PE. i was daamn happy lurhs. cause it feels so shiok to sweat. ;D
but everything started to get worst. ): hais, i realised i cant pour everything out to everyone. cause my comments on things will cause hurt to ppl. why? why whnever i wanna help the person to get happy whn i show them my experiences, they will all end up sad? i just want them to get happiness but in the end i made them even sadder. gosh! whats wrong with me, i really feel like just ShutingTheFuckUp. i wanna be emo, i dont wanna care whats happening. i dont wanna be talkative anymore. i simply just want everyone to be happy. you, my friends & my family. i dont wan2 hurt anyone with my words. i hate it. yes, im stupid. i really am. didnt even hlp whn i saw some ppl fighting. crap. i really should start to get a thought in my life.

moodless-

The sun rose @ 9:34 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008 - :

finally reach home at 1pm today. (: spent the whole of yesterday gambling. stayed over at my cousin's place last night. and my phone was dead. battery flat. hahs. i miss the computer so much that the first thing i did whn i came home is to sit down there. xD hahas. cannot survive without the com i suppose. hmns; yesterday wasnt that lucky larhs, but enjoy myself seeing so much ppl playing black jack tgt. its been so long, since i seen ppl shouting, laughing and jeering. [; they really brought my spirits up, i wanna join thm so much i forgot about everything that is happening. hahas. d;

tml have match against greenridge, and so i did my running today. to maintain my fitness. lol. guess what i did? i went to lot one, thn went to arcade to plae ghost squad. after that, i jog all the way from lot one to my house. hehs. i dont even know how long it was but it seriously nice running. ;D im prepared fer the match tml, so everyone! must come support hors! xD

came home and what a disappointment i had. my family was quarreling over small things. ): im there feeling a little dizzy after running and there they were, shouting and screaming at each other. hais. seriously thats the first time i just sat down there and listen. i realised i have no more energy to scold, to correct thm or even to listen to thm. why? why must it always be my sis, my bro and my parents? why cant i quarrel with thm. i dont know. but i know if its me, all of us would have a hard time after that. i guess that i really dont wanna bring anger to anyone in my family. simply cause they are the only ppl i can go to if i had any problems. im not saying that my bros in sch are not there fer me. its just that my family is the only one that can stand fer me whenever i needed them. 24/7, always. hope they would ease down their anger soon bahs. (: but seriously, i really would stand fer my rights if any one of thm provoke it, cause i know whats right and whats wrong. ;D
please, can anyone take away all the hatred between every single parents and their kids. so there wont be any disputes. (:


handling family problems are tough, but everything would be fine in time to come. (:

The sun rose @ 3:43 AM

Friday, February 8, 2008 - :

woke up at 11 today cause slept late last night. hehs. xD yea so prepare to visit in the afternoon lerhs. its my mother's side today. as usual, we were the kindof late. hahahs. xiguan lerhs. ;D the late fam. hmns; started to gamble again and im kindof outta luck. gave too much away ytd lerhs? wahhahs. but nevermind, patience brought me back into a winning streak. i guess i cant be luckier to get two blackjacks in a row and continous winnining. hahs. pro. xD
after winningin so much, i feel that there was like smth missing. hais, it was my passed away grandmother. i kindof miss her cause whn i played with her, she would always let mi win and accompany mi to plae whn no one wanna plae with me. she really treat me very well. i miss my ahma. ): tried to smile after that. hmns; guess what? im having so negative impression of relationship nowadays cause of what is happening to my cousins. one of them want to have a child but whn he have it, he doesnt wanna takecare of it. and their, divorce with her husband because of some problems and found herself a new bf. and she has a child too. gosh. what's happening to this world?
fang xia zhen de you zhe me rong yi ma?
i decided not to think about it lerhs larhs. hahahas. xD but seriously, i feel like changing this world, to become a better place.
went back to gamble again. won 14bucks. hahahs. (: i dont know why everytime i treat that its just a game, win or lose oso nevermind. thn i will sure win de. maybe thats cause whn i plae i have no pressure that i may be sad whn i lose bahs. hahas. (: yea, thn jiu slack there till 11 lorhs. hahas.

are you feeling better? jiayou !

The sun rose @ 9:16 AM

Thursday, February 7, 2008 - :

slept at 3 last night. help my parents 守岁。(: so woke up at 10 today. 7hrs of slp and i suppose it should be enough for me. prepared myself and went to bai nian after that. hahahs. very long time never zi high infront of my cousin lerhs, cause everytime i go comfirm will emo de. but today, i high for the whole day, dont wanna emo. ;D hmns; im lucky i suppose cause i won some money from gambling. hahhas. not that type of illegal gambling den but cny small small table de. hehs. won myself 10 bucks. pro? xD
so did a day of visiting. tiredtired. came home and played sf with SuFern and her brother. SuFern became better lerh thn her brother pro lai de. ;D hahas.

she came to me with her eyes filled with tears.
God, please give her peace.
just close ur eyes, & you'll be here with me.

The sun rose @ 7:06 AM

Wednesday, February 6, 2008 - :

had two hours of sch today. thats super lame larhs. -.- what a kind of a 'celebration' our sch prepared for us. :/ i had Add maths and eng. realised that im kindof seperating from the crowd in my homework. i did none of them. gosh, what a slacker i am. hais. disappointed in myself sia. promised miss ng that i'll return everything to her on mon, aft CNY. hope i do what i promised her. (; english marks a learning journey for me today. i had some kind of a quarrel with mr soh. things didnt get right for me in eng. but in the end, mr soh did try to calm things. im really sorry towards him as i always respected him alot. and today, my respects for him showed that he's worth it. (; nearly cried as i was disappointed with myself, why couldnt i control my emotions nowadays? while he can. i admire him, his more than just a teacher to me. he's a good one. i believe one day, many others will start to show him a little more respect. ;D

finally its 10! hahahs. xD i went home after that to change up as i'll be meeting SuFern and Heidy for a movie. (: i had reunion lunch after that too, so wear smth nicer than just a tshirt and pants. hahahas.
watched 27dresses. its a amazing movie. it brought my emotions flying again with all the sad part plus comedy scenes and of course the loving ones. enjoyed watching it. (: hahahs, may all lovers be tgt forever! ;D

was fetched by my parents after that i and i went to eat my reunion lunch. sounds kindof weird cause all of my other friends had reunion dinner expect for mine. hahhas. unqiue i suppose. (; tml CNY lerh, must collect more hongbao! wahahhs! cause now broke lerhs. hehs

The sun rose @ 3:08 AM

Tuesday, February 5, 2008 - :

hmns; due to some ppl who wanna hear the song i posted on 31Jan08, ima update it in my blog. (: listen and comment please! xD

The sun rose @ 4:21 AM

Monday, February 4, 2008 - :

daamn boring now. im at sch's computer lab and im so bored! i shall post. ;D
had match with zhenghua ytd. was so disappointed with the final score which was a draw. 0-0. hais. was expecting so much to win them as they wasnt even close to our class of plae. the thing is we may not be able to proceed to the 2nd rounds lerhs. cause tenically hongkah may purposely lose to zhenghua in order to kick us out of the tourney. im scare. i dont wanna lose. ): but the damage is already done. i just hope that i can stand up strong in time for the next two matches which is our only chance to proceed on. i really dont wanna learn from this mistake. sian. c'mon chuachukang! please win.

hmns; today saw jolene smiling again. (: feel that she's back on track. that girl better find herself a group of friends that she's comfortable with! jiayou Jolene! ;D

anw, i saw alot of emo ppl nowadays. its seriously scary to see emo ppl now. i dont know why but i will get affected by them somehow. saw my physics teacher cried in class today. really hope that she'll be fine. everyone, please! dont be emo, please dont be. to friends, whn you need me, im always here for you guys. (:

The sun rose @ 9:33 PM

Sunday, February 3, 2008 - :

i started the day dreadfully as i was still at the state of slping. slept at 4 last night. feel so much like slping but didnt know why i cant. hahs. silly me. hmns; and of course, recieve a msg in the morning greeting and asking whter im awake cause i said she was a pig ytd and she wanted to prove that she isnt. lol. 8.45am. saw the msg but whn back to slp. dont care larhs, too tired. ;/ thn after that joel called mi asking me to pei him go cut hair, i agree and guess what happen str8 after the call? kiat call me ask him go cityhall again to buy skinny. LOL! i was like die, how to plan the timing? cause i myself wanted to go lot one to buy some stuffs. but luckly its me, i planned it just nice. hahhas. pro. xD waited for joel for about 2.30 hrs b4 he reach bangkit. i was starving like shyt man. ): luckly i didnt faint or else joel, u're responsible for it. raawrs! ;# after that jiu pei him cut hair. sian lorhs, his hair is super thick and it took him like 20mins to cut his hair but it stills look the same. -.- maybe he's hair shape will stay like that forever lerh bahs. lol hmns; and of coruse he went to find laura as she stays at bangkit. hahas. and for us, we went to bugis first cause Jeydee wanted to go there buy his clothes. it was super duper sqeezy lorhs. the whole bugis packed. but still manage to get myself one t shirt from there. dont know why i like to buy simple clothes nowadays rather than complicated ones. change or taste bahs. (: after that, went to cityhall again. bought a buckler for my belt and that si kk also. he's can spin so on the way back he kept playing with it. irritating. -.- hahahs. later clamp ur lanjiao thn u know. muahahahs! yea, saw seow rong and michelle too. hahhas. ;D
thats all ler i guess. tml sch starting again. gotta concentrate. hehs.

The sun rose @ 6:05 AM

Saturday, February 2, 2008 - :

did my shopping ytd. (: thanks guys, pei-ing you all shop the streets really made e enjoy myself alot. hehs.

went to queen'sway at 4 with sarah, kk, jack, jd, eugene and joel! hahhas. at the start of the joruney, all like so emo sia. was still afraid that this day gonnna suck so much. ;/ but luckly 4 positive ppl change all the negative into positive. wahhahas. ;D yea, so we decided to go to the mickymouse restaurant to eat as sarah said wanna bring us there. guess what's the best thing? we walked and settled down, thn we realised the food super small and expensive! thn all dont wanna eat liao. super malu lorhs. we walked out of mickymouse restaurant and dash str8 to subway.[which most of them prefered.] i ate twice. hahahs. ;D after thelunch we went back to queen'sway to shop shop shop. i bought myself a green t shirt. cause my wardrobe no green shirt except for cckss uniform. ;/ sarah help me choose my shirt de, thanks meii! (: after that, sarah had to go. thn mi and joel send her all the way to queen'stown mrt station. we walked, laugh and sing in between. hahahas! laura came after that. and boy joel was super happy. xD he's been complaining how much he misses her. hahahas. silly fren of mine. ohya, after that went to pennisular at cityhall and bought myself a pair of skinnys. hope it looks good on me. wahhahas. (; took a group photo too which is so diao. aiseh lorhs. hahahas. thn we procecced to the lan shop and kill. ;D

enjoyed my day. thanks guys! xD

The sun rose @ 7:13 PM

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things are getting on the right track for me, im starting to concentrate on my studies, soccer and my friends. have'nt had this feelings for like so looong. friends are still the best! (: hahs.

anw, we lost to hongkah 3-2 this wed. i aint feeling bad as i saw how my team fought to win agains them, that made me wanna play for my team to the best. i dont wanna lose, i wanna win! i need to improve so much, get my mind in the game and fight for my team. soccer is always my passion, but it feels scary whn i saw one of their players fighting with the deathgod. he cant get oxygen and was crying for help. life's really that unpredictable yea. one moment he's running with the ball, their he's down on the floor.it made me feels that death may come upon you anytime, how scary. thats why i need to win, in everything. to make sure that i wont die with regrets of not putting in more effort to my love ones, my favourite sports and my friends. i just hope that God will treat me with more care, dont give me such a big thing to handle at one time, it will stress me out cause i aint a very good problem solver. life goes on, i'll be cherishing every moment till i die. (:

ohya!
happy birthday didi!

The sun rose @ 5:15 PM