FUCK; this bullshit. Its just only past 1 and so many things have happen. Why?! Why cant you just think & get motivated to go to work and be a normal dad. At least you have mummy supporting you, you have us supporting you. Ain't that enough? Ain't the love mummy giving you feel motivated to stop thinking about those negative stuffs and procceed forward to support this family? Why do you always look down on yourself, feeling that your business would fail every now & then. Why can't you think of the family that is always so worried whenever you feel like this. Is not as if we all left you and dont care about you already right? Its like why would you whine and complain so fucking much when you know not only you have problems in this family dad, not only you. I'm here fucking trying to get my life back on path so that i could stand up once again w/o even telling you guys about my stuffs.Its simply because i aint want you guys to worry about me. But why in the end, you made me so angry about you. I can't understand why, look at my leg? Its not fucking recovering and i'm so fucking piss off with my life now. I fail in my studies, sports and what next? Am i gonna fail in my family as well? I'm trying to numb myself and hope that everything would change after every night before sleeping. Waking up trying to feel new, cant you see that not only you have problems? Why bring it or blame it on us? We didn't do anything wrong towards you. Fucking; disappointed.