My Rants
Thursday, April 24, 2008
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my life's a messed.
After all the things that had been happening to me, i threw it out today during english period.
The pain that i was holding back, the tears i didnt want to shed & and the frustration i have on myself, my life and me. Just like i expected, i had to pay for the price of being rash. My parents came down to talk to MrLiew. I wasnt angry with anyone of them, but instead- i was angry with myself, for making my parents worry. The faces they showed, killed me that instant. i couldnt hold my tears and cried. i know no matter how much sorry i am now or how much sorry i could tell them wont work. Simply because i myself cant forgive me. Guess this life of mine is gonna get more & more difficult for me to live in.
I didnt tell them of my problems, because i knew if the problem was caused because of me. I should handle it bravely myself & i know i can do it- no matter how impossbile it may sound. But i seriously need sometime, to have enough energy to put my problems aside. so that i could at least be Jarrold again, the one which trust that he will never get pull down and focus on things that are more important.
he told me; Let it go, you must learn to.
If God plan for you, he'll make you understand why.
The sun rose @
3:00 AM