hahahs! today is 31st. (:
i have just told her everything i wanted to say from my heart. it feels better that i have said it cause it hurts really much keeping everything inside my heart, its like going to explode. but to me now, what really matters isnt whether she will be tgt with me in the future anot, what matters is our friendship is still there. i just hope that one day, everything can settle down. (;
was actually very upset just now. cause of the feeling that i'm no longer important to her. but really have to thanks laura for speaking to me. (; she make mi undestand alot. even though im kindof sad today, i know and believe that i'll make it to happiness one day. and the day will come. [;
this few days have been a suffering for me. i dont know why am i writting this down onto my blog but i guess it will make me feel better. yea by now everyone should think that i am happy but in fact. i'm not at all. ): i cant seem to get any better even though i may want to get happy so badly. i still have alot of things that i want to tell Jolene. but seeing her so happy with her life without me makes me seriously feel like crying. its not that she cause everything, its just that i fell way in love with her, and i dont know how to stop it. its so painful ! i wanna keep everything to myself, my feelings for her to just myself but i cant. i need someone to listen to me. im in trouble, and its causing so much pain in me. all those memeories i had with her, all the times when i truly believe that she's the one for me. i love her alot. GOD ! please take away my hurtings, lend me a shoulder to cry on.
home-d. just came back fmr costa sand. (: