My Rants

Friday, August 31, 2007 - :

31st August 07

-It shuld be a happy day , but I make it a lousy one .

hais , yet again . i guailan-ed my own dear . wtf is happening to me !!
damn i hate the feeling now . i love her so much and yet i did a thing that i shuldnt do . it was so sweet yesterdae whn she surprised me but i was a totally ungrateful bastard . now , i feel that i'm lost again .

-disappointment

i saw that necklace that we choose together on the floor .
i wasnt disappointed in you , dear .
i was disappointed in myself , i noe i had make you hate me so much at that time when you took of that necklace , put it on the floor and left it there . i did found it , it was juz beside me whn i was about to sit down after walking around the sch . was it fate ? hais , i was so disappointed in myself that i actually cried . its like what i did had hurt you so much that you took off that necklace , that impt necklace . D:
i noe you too , felt hurt .

-i'm still worry , can we talk ?

after today , the one week hols are coming . and i cant see you , will your love for me fade ? T.T i returned you your necklace in the end , i nearly cried when you seems to dont care when that necklace is gone , and you knew it wasnt there . it hurts , but i could only blame myself . it did seems alright at the end , but i noe that what i did , hurt you so much . i'm sorry //

i wanna say , dear , my love ;

Another day without your smile.
Another day juz passes by.
But now i know how much it means.
For you to stay right here with me.

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger.
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you , I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you , I wanna be looking in yours eyes.
I wanna be there for you , sharing everything that you do.
I wanna grow old with you.

A thousand miles between us now.
It causes to wonder how.
Our love tonights remains so strong.
It makes our risk right all along.

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger.
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you , I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you , I wanna be looking in your eyes.
I wanna be there for you , sharing in everything you do.

Things can come and go , i know but baby i believe
Something's burning strong between us.
Makes it clear with me.

I wanna grow with you , I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you , I wanna be looking in yours eyes.
I wanna be there for you , sharing in everything you do.

I wanna grow old with you , I wanna die lying in your arms.
I wanna grow old with you , I wanna be looking in yours eyes.
I wanna be there for you , sharing in everything you do.
i wanna grow old with you.

dear , i wanna grow old with you . staying beside you .
i wanna help you wear that necklace again , putting it on , to show how much i love you . let me take your hand and continue our journey please .

i'm sorry .

The sun rose @ 4:35 AM

Thursday, August 30, 2007 - :

today is sweet . hahas (:
gave my wallet to dear this morning .
during recess , i have macronie cooked by dear , nicenice :D
had to part with her for class lerhhs . ): but smth surprised me so so much :DD
i opened my wallet and in one of the compartment , i found a piece of paper .
it was written by dear !! hahas . wad was wrote on top ? dun let u all noe . hees ; thn , i found another one whn i open another compartment . its so nice to have surprises . iloveyou dear (; you're so sweet .

jarrold-

The sun rose @ 5:32 AM

Saturday, August 11, 2007 - :

dear , hope you will get to read this . :)
i'm thankful for what you've done for me all this while and yeahh , our relationship lasted as we communicate everytime we have misunderstanding . sometimes , our thinking may not be the same as each other when we are goin thru those quarrels , but to me , i always knew that we would solve it , together . :D

ThankYouForLettingMeHaveSoMuchTrustInYou

iloveyou x3



The sun rose @ 8:33 PM

Thursday, August 9, 2007 - :

hais , another 24hrs without speaking to her after some problems . [maybe juz smth minor.] gonna go out with kienkiat they all soon and it shuld be a happy thing but i cant feel anithing right . i'm waiting fer ur call still coz i noe wad happened yesterdae can be solve if we both want too , but wad confused me and make mi doubtful is , cant you see u're the one i love ? i reali miss you but i aint noe wad to do ):

The sun rose @ 1:12 AM

Saturday, August 4, 2007 - :

yawn !! woke up 8am in the morning and started preparing as i'll be meetin dear afterwards to peii her go cip . have not seen her since that misunderstanding and i cant wait to do so :) hehs . i reached ccks station at 9am sharp as thats the time we agreed to meet . waited and waited till 10 in the morning when i almost drain all my energy waiting for her to arrived . she was late :( it kindof dampered my mood for that day but still tried to tell myself that we can enjoy the rest of the day if we put in effort .
lucky lucky , we both started the day well by talking and understanding about each other regarding the huge misunderstanding we had . and i started to feel how much i love her again . :D which was a magnificient thing to feel . hahas
watch the simpsons movie after that and it was terrific , humorous to be exact .. hmns ; very humorous . hehehes xD
accompanied dear to jurong west later in the evening as she had a tuition to go to .
hmns ; today , a guy accompanied her to the stairways where i was waiting for dear , she told me that the guy was her suitor . hahas [dear is famous] :P but too bad for him , dear is mine !! hahas . stupid short boyboy , wanna snatch my dear ? i whack you !! (: hehehs .
dinner time !! went to sakae sushi with dear and felt so so wonderful . hahas , and full too . xP while accompanying dear home , chatted with her and yeahh , those times feel magnificient , terrificly great !! haas ; look at her from below her house and felt like Romeo and Juliet . [thats what she said :PP] hahas .
after saying goodbye to her and adn then , went home !! hahas .
i miss them both (: but dear more than adn then . hehes ;

i go eat supper already !! bbyes

jarrold-

The sun rose @ 8:17 AM

Friday, August 3, 2007 - :

Morning

hais , everything i did was a disater . its getting from bad to worse today .
i was so tired [mentally] ): my fist was hurting and my flu was irritating , but smth even worst was my heart . its was torn apart so badly i dun feel pain . after all the cryin i had yesterday , i felt numb . i didnt noe wad was goin wrong , everything seems unreal to me , coz its a world without u . soon after , realised that Jielin meii had been staring at me fer the whole morning and i went to ask her about dear .. she said that she could'nt tell me anithing about wad dear told her but could only sae that she's fine , i did in the end persuade her to sae . and thankfully , she told me . thanks meii !! i realised that our problem may be a huge misunderstanding //

Recess
hais , had only one sentece with her and after that , everything went back to the cold state . arghh , i'm so frustrated . when back to class and tried to focus on other things .

Lunch
my lunch was'nt great . i was eating like i had to . no taste at all . juz eating fer the sake of eating . i tried to approach her straight after my last class . asked her whether she wanted to go down to lunch with me , but she didnt repli mi and i dunno why . D:
guess today wouldnt come out to a good day either . sian . went fer cca later .

CCA ended
tried so so hard to look fer her so that i could offer to send her home and maybe we could calm things down , but i didnt see her at all . hais //

Lucky momment
thank god , dear called me and we settled things out . phew // i realised that how much we've gone thru may seems unesscerssary , but it made me noe how much she was to me , re-assuring my love fer her . dear , iloveyou (:

i'm sorry
meii , kor du bu qi ni . i break my promise . but what u told mi made my thinking change , made mi noe what i'm supposed to do . thanks meii , sorry i've disappointed u once again . will u forgive me ?


The sun rose @ 6:48 AM

Thursday, August 2, 2007 - :

我很想你 D;
24hrs without even speaking to you , and that feelings is'nt good . its terrible
i don't know what happen , and i don't know why . suddenly , i'm so lost .
looking for you every moment , but today , i only saw you for 10secs from a distance .
what can i do to know . i'm mentally weak now , there is no energy supporting me . hais .

girl , i just need you to open it up to me .
tell me you need me .


今天的路 ， 似乎缺少了什么
哪在你背包上的铃声 ， 不见了。
你的笑声 ， 也跟着走了。
我情不只经的时后 ，
往往会转头看 ，
但今天却看不见 ， 你 。：(

The sun rose @ 4:14 AM