My Rants

Thursday, May 31, 2007 - :

Today is 31st May , Tomorrow is 1st ..

Last day of May ; summarising my may reali wont be anithing good ..
but all i hope fer , is a better tomorrow .

Last night , i went home after soccer .. thn i found out a phrase which can help me and my situation now ..

i saw a star which is directly above mi .. &
when i turn , i saw a moon .. both were wonderful ..
i kept walking and when i turn back ..the star was gone ..
it was covered by my block .. but still , i kept walking ..
turn back , and the moon was gone too .. it was covered by trees taller thn my eye-view.. thn i started to regrett , why didnt i cherish both of them when i can?

"there maybe times that people may regrett that they didnt cherish anithing" ..

thn i decided to go home after all . and when i look out of my window again..
i saw both of them .. both hanging on that patch of sky ..
i started thinking , would letting things go brings a better future?

"but letting it go and looking at things at different position would in the end , benifits you ".

"There maybe times that people may regrett that they didnt cherish anithing , but letting it go and looking at things at different position would in the end benifits you". Jarrold -



The sun rose @ 8:45 PM

Thursday, May 24, 2007 - :

haiiz .. i reali getting so stressed up with my life :(
Jarrold lim , cant u juz wake up ? damn u're an idoit .

had a tiring week , with problems .. happiness .. and most of all ..
sadness .. i juz cant get over things .. i wanna understand but i can't ..
i'm not that strong guy anymore .. i'm weak ..

22 may'07
My day was spoilt went i quarrel with my good bro , Joel .. and the most stupidest thing was to take advantage of his kindness .. :( i regretted .. therefore apologise . he did accepted it in the end but my problems didnt juz stopped there .. todae , also quarrel with jo , haiiz .. wads happening in my life ..my life juz simply contain problems after problems .. ):

i dunno wad to feel but sad ..

23 may'07
JieLin meii have problem again , as usual i listerned to her .. its with her frens and jo noe bout it as well . in the end , quarrel with jo about JieLin's fren .. haiiz , i dunno wad to do girl .. i dun wan to hurt u , but its simply juz seems impossible coz of everything .. wad am i to u ? i cant even tell myself an firm answer .. try to solve the problem , it seems solved .. but i do noe , its not ..

24 may'07
everything seems bad as well .. dun feel like talkin about it bout wo zhen de zhen de hen fan .. i juz cant stop letting myself get hurt , emotionally ..

life is a problem , and i cant handle it ..



The sun rose @ 5:15 AM

Saturday, May 12, 2007 - :

[*("twelve may zero'7")*]
todae was the most memorable day that i'm goin to rmber fer the rest of my life .
i was happy , delighted xD Everyone , i've smile , smile fer its real .

hmns ; tell u all why bahs . things started like that ..
i went to Chu Hui's chalet in the morning with Kk , Jd & Ben plus four girls . reached there about 11 and i was like only staying till 2 or 3 , siian =.=lll
we sun-tanned as there was nth else to do ler . took of our clothes of course and the girl peep . naughty siia .. xD didnt mind at all coz , i open minded bahs ? hahas .

3 ! i was ready fer tonite's play whn Jd suddenly told mi he not goin with mi animore ler . siian diao . lols . but since he doesnt wanna go , didnt force him . at first , i was thinking . shyt , if Jd dun go , thn i and jo how ? malu seii . ><
thn after that , didnt focus on that and started my journey to find jo . which was almost impossible coz , she usually finds mi . =DD we met at wisma , toilet . LOLs !
a little bit odd . but still carried on . told jo i was hungry and we went all the way to far east plaza eat burgerking , as usual .. i eat burger , she eat fries .. bought her milo oso .. her favourite ma ! hahas . thn we sit down there , she ask mi hlp her take out her highlighter and ruler , but i oni can find her highlighter coz she sae she fergotten to bring her ruler . lols , hai wo zhai na li bai zhao . xDD
of course i would not stop searching her bag till i found i bottle of nail polish which says its luminous . she started to polish her nails of course , sayin it may not be luminous .. i ask her try and thn later at nite thn see lorhhs .

Went shopping , window shopping whn we started to get closer to each other ..
xD a little bit paiiseh but still , went on with it . =D we walked to Fort Canning Park frm Far East plaza whn we joked and chatted . reali enjoyed it .. on the way , saw a contractor names DAVID CHEANG . thn we tot of taking it down to let Joel david cheang , one of my bros to see . lols , actualli the guy no or ki , but gt pearl on his face , so became or ki lorhh . muz show joel on mon , =D walk walk walk and started to ask ppl where is fcp . 1st person we asked told us how to reach there . we nidd to reach there by 7.30 but at that time whn we ask the person , its was like 7.20 , so we rushed all the way to fcp to catch the play , esther frm 2/4 hlped as book place but the spot was not that good coz we are in the middle of no where , to see wads happening , didnt reali understand the play but had a good time sitting down there playing with jo , we were like last time , i was so so so so happy . xD

After it finish , i & jo walked to the istana park . damn romantic lor . the pathways, aww , heart -melted . feelings fer her started to rush back immediately .. puck a flower fer her which soon withered and i told her , beautiful things wont last long . xD we are goin into a couple statue again and i reali did enjoy every , i reali mean every moment with her . ate mac later and we rush fer the last train , so wonderful story .. we both rest and whn i reach , cck .. walk to the park with her and saw two stars hanging on the sky , they were far apart , juz like mi and jo , so close yet so far . ohya , i rmbered , during the ride , i confessed to her that actualli i wanted to ask her fer stead fer one day but didnt coz i tot frens would be fine , how in the world i noe that so conicidently , she wanted to do the same thing , omg , that was like a shock ! a happy shocked . sent her back home thn went to find my mum which was picking mi up . thanks mum ! fer picking mi up even though its so late . happi mother's day ! xD

jarrold: i reali miss begin with u and today was a great and wonderful day fer both mi and u . i'm letting nature takes its course xD it would be kept in my heart & mind fer the rest of my life . jo , i thank u fer eveything todae .. i'm happi that lord is leading us somewhere and showing us wad best fer us ! thanks fer answering my prayers to stop the rain so that the play can go on . and letting mi noe so much more about her .. untill now , i'm still thinking of her . lols jiu end here ler . ROMANTIC DAY !

jarrold-

The sun rose @ 11:13 AM

Tuesday, May 8, 2007 - :

life's been boring and i'm tired .. haiiz ):
todae thn i realised i can always adivce ppl in how to overcome their problems, emotionally , or mentally or physically . i always did tot i was that strong guy untill i realised how it feels to lose ur position in someone .. thats so so so painful and whn its my turn to overcome it , i choose to ran away frm it . i do noe that thats wrong but its juz happened , naturally.. i'm not that strong after , i still nid someone to cry to , shout to , complain everything to :[

Yesterdae talk to ]d on the phone to advice him .. didnt did i noe it worked out perfectly . was happy of course , but whn i think of my problems , i'm a gonner .. Jey , u do reali have a gd close fren that is treatin u with that care that u wont noe , but she still does care .. jiayou , u all can solve that prob de .. and thn continue to be close frens .. but fer mi , i dunno , its not solved yet .. it seems like its solve but that bloody feeling is still there , and i sense smth is wrong, or smth is goin to get wrong , soon .. and always do i believe that it would be solve , i believe as much as it wont get ani where too . i'm stuck . i wanna hlp myself , but wadd can i do to overcome human nature ? to overcome wadd i think than to wad i see ? to live this world in pure and real happiness ? i reali juz wanna smile once , fer even juz that one second , smile fer its real ..

jarrold

The sun rose @ 4:45 AM

Sunday, May 6, 2007 - :

hmns ; woke upp at 8 todae . lols . dunno why , juz cant fall asleep . :(
after that went to farjar to plae socc with ]d kiat and gene . siian norhhs, todae thn i realiesd that my stamina dropped like siao . damn .. plae bu dao 15 mins niia i like wanna faint liao , but still , continued . coz i noe soccer is my favourite hobby . did feel much better later . =DD nth special reali did happen todae but nearly nearly damage the frenship i've been building with boiiboii .. but in the end , dunno where comes that courage again to apologise . dunno why always quarrel with boiiboii sure i feel guilty first de . hahas , after that was better .. happi again xD . tired , have cramps this few days . pain :( haven had my dinner . T.T

go eat ler !
jarrold-

The sun rose @ 5:57 AM

Thursday, May 3, 2007 - :

went to bugis todae after examination coz eng paper is this week's last paper . so decided to slack . hahas .. i went home change first coz didnt wanna wear sch uniform go .. so told thm that we meet at BPP . i so stupid , told thm who last wan to reach is wu gui . thn in the end i was the last one . =.=lll . went to bugis with KK, ]D ]iaxian and Esther . ]olene & Zhengkai oso . Zhengkai and ]olene went there by mrt coz they gt dnt thing , so we left first .. even though reached there about the same time . lols .how they so fast de ? i oso dunno . had mac fer lunch and went shoppin after that . we walk walk walk thn suddenly they all gone . left me and ]olene togehter , at first still tot they did it on purpose but shld habb trust thm more . they went to addidas . sry guys ..

after that went to BUGIS STREET . thn there gt one shop named ' xing ' qu in chinese . lols . they were making fun of zk sayin alot of things about sex with him larhs .. horny siia ! xD . did went around shoppin fer my accesories coz i need some to replace my old ones, did found one but its wasnt special , but i tot , simple was fine =D went back home with ]olene and Zk , took mrt . thn the rest took bus home . ]olene was super hungry lor . she didnt have breakfast and lucnh i guess coz she kipps tellin mi about the food in bugis street . told thm i had to go to the toilet and thn told ]olene i was hungry oso , [coz i noe she no money and plus whn i sae i treat her , she will sae dun wan . so told her i was eatin oso . eben though i was full xD] went to tiramisu shop i think coz she smell smth nice , lols . she beri ke ai lor . go ask the person wads the smell , thn the person reply oso beri funny . he sae maybe cream puff . maybe tiramisu ,or maybe his body odur , thn i was thinking , B.O got so nice smell de meh , i & zk laugh like siao . =DD
its was nice lar , nt bad , i ate chocolate puff which was named echlair puff of smth like that , thn i dunno how pronouns , so point point lor. malu siia >.<
went back by mrt and the ride was 'horrifying .' lols . ask zk , he saw everything .
damn malu !

after zk left . i & ]olene continue takin the mrt to yew tee thn back to cck . bo liao . since still have time thn plae plae lor . lols . went to warren with her and she started talkin about her past again . this time , dunno why , juz kept quiet and listen to her , feel as if last time de wo ler . she did finish every thing she wanted to sae . and while waiting fer the bus to come . we chatted , went home after that ..

hmns ; everyone hu went to bugis on thurs , thanks fer letting me had such fun !!
xD jarrold

ps : i love my dressing todae , first time got somebody sae i look good . xDD

The sun rose @ 8:34 AM