My Rants

Wednesday, March 28, 2007 - :

haiiz , siian narhs !
life's damn tiring ..

28 march -
todae went sch by father's car [save money fer transport]
thn reach sch damn early, so guai guai de sit down and study lor
studied chinese spelling coz later have test mahs
promise someone muz work hard ler so have to
started sch as they reported our cckss won over YIS
but dunno why no feelin of happiness at all
was thinking whether Seng would reali ask his players to kik our leg anot
i believe he wont but again, dunno why the feeling still there

went back to class as usuall and had a fast time whn was studying so so hard
maybe coz now nth to worry of ler bahs . letting natural takes every course
still the same , would miss her once in a while x]

even though quarreled with kienkiat, didnt wnna spoilt anithing whn i was with her, still remain as happi .. waited fer her fer bout 4 hrs in sch watching B boys training so that hope can learn smth frm it , did so D&T work and in the end sitting down there playin PSP, quite fun siia =DDD

6+ ,finally.. dance endded , sent her hme but she like with her frens so isolated myself . first time felt like i was her dog coz she whislte and i have to follow , didnt think too much anw , didnt wanna be sensitive at all . but in the end still sent her hme .[dunno why everytime i see her walk hme, i fell relieved that she is safe]

hmns ; guess shuld end here ler bahs

jarrold

The sun rose @ 5:46 AM

Thursday, March 22, 2007 - :

311oo6-21o3o7 . this time . its the truth that we reali broke upp .

i could only remember wadd i told her at the end of our conversation .

ddear : wo men break bahs
bbaobeii : can u think again

[thinking.]

ddear : wo men break bahs
bbaobeii : okay
ddear : i dun wna u to feel tired accompanying mi overcoming this prob
bbaobeii : i will still be waiting fer u to overcome ur problem de
ddear : i noe

[silence.]

bbaobeii : can i call u ddear fer the last time ?
ddear : u can call mi ddear anitime de

[pouring out all his love.]

bbaobeii : ddear , I LOVE U

[crying .]

bbaobeii : thanks fer the memorable days !

_______________

i'm sad,
yesh i'm
but i noe that nth could stop mi frm loving her
i said thanks to her
coz if its not her
bbaobeii wont noe how impt she is
in his heart
she sae , one day after all problems are settle
we will return back to each other
i turst that this will happen
but all i noe now is that i muz
i muz wait .
everytime i see ieu .
my heart breaks .
bcoz i cannot be with u .
fer the time begin .
i would wait .
i would .
love yea !

jarrold

The sun rose @ 1:33 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007 - :

hmms ; dunno whether to be happy or sad now ..
ieu & mii juz patch after that broke upp..
i can sense that u could overcome that prob..
but on the other hand,i still feel insucure..
i'm scare that one day u would juz leave..
leaving mi alone once again..
in that place where u dun exist..
all i nid is u,to brighten my life with joy..
to let mi carry ur burden with u..
someone pls tell mi wad to do..
shuld i show her more concern..
shuld i show her more care..
shuld i show more love fer her..
frenz,pls tell mi wad shuld i do..
to kipp her by myside..
loving oni mi,but no one else..
i'm reali confused..
yesh,i'm..

jarrold


The sun rose @ 6:39 PM

Thursday, March 8, 2007 - :

zero8zero3zero7 , todae is the dae which i wan to dedicate to my love , jo .

at bout 3.30 , after assembly , i decide to look fer jo to tell her smth impt . i decided to break with her as smth went wrong , its was tough , but i noe , it muz happen todae , if nt . i would be sry fer myself and her , its nobody's fault . after that heart breaking talk with her , i hold up all my tears as i noe , fer SURE , 1 day , i would jio her back . making her love mi more thn she love him ! although i still smile at her , i reali felt smth that was so impt to mi was goin missing , i was lost , lost in the middle of nowhere , even she was beside mi , i didnt felt her presence , i felt that i was all alone again . i went to find kk & the rest , and told myself , i muz be happi coz its jiaxian's bdae , i did smile , i did laugh , but fer all that i have done , it seems so fake . we watch juz follow law [it was the movie jo wana watch , which i promise her to watch with her .] but going the same cinema theater that i spent most time with her . cck 2 , entering it was a nightmare ,
i step into it , feeling my heart bursting will saddness .Thn decided to spent juz a happy moment with kk they all . after the show , went str8 hme by lrt , this transport can be sae as a memorable transport fer mi and her , benches , sky and the sun . i was regretting , but i told myself on the lrt , i muz , muz jio jo back , back to mi .. loving mi more thn ever , i decided

to be continued ...



The sun rose @ 4:21 AM