My Rants
Monday, October 15, 2007
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i don't know what to say, i just wish we're going to be fine. went lot one happily to look for dear. zhen de zhen de hao xiang ta. and finally can get to see her lerhs. :D i dunno why but this morning i just kept thinking of what will happen if there is any quarrel in the furture. what will i do ? this kept running through my mind and i don't know why. but now i know why did it ran thru' my mind for the whole morning. met dear at yellow coz she was buyin present fer her louis gorr. actually planned to watch resident evil but nid ic. lols. jiu decided to go play ghost squad, i was better than her today and so she stopped playing and left me playin by myself. why did you do that? aren't we suppose to win it together? did not wanna quarrel with her so i kept quiet, veri quiet. so after that she went to watch a guy play parapara and said she wanted to go home. but in the end went back to play ghost squad. this time i reali don't know what cause her to be so pissed off ? i reali did play my best but you just seems to be letting me win. and so whats the purpose fer playin on? and if u wanna know why i hit the mines one stage 3, i still have one full bar of life and i still can win that mine thing at the end, coz thats the place there the mines are nearer so easier to make it stop. i did everything fer a purpose, and in the end u're just so pissed off again and hit the mines urself to kill ur life. i was angry and i reali didnt wanna continue. why would such a thing happen? hais. you, decided to leave mi again for the second time. did you ever notice how hurt i was? seeing you just walk off because u're pissed off. i chased after you. the more u know i was behind, the faster u ran. why cant we just settle it peacefully. a disput because of a game. i sat at the stairs infront of ur condo, watching you walk in, slam the gate and continue walkin in. i sat down there, tearing. just hoping you would come back but you didnt. i called ur hse, but ur maid said u aint home yet. u know how worry i was? i walk into the condo, lookin fer u, everywhere. i sweat and i felt like i was going to faint soon, but still i only have u running thru my mind. my hearts hurts so badly and the healer of it isn't there. what esle could i do? feeling so defeated, i could only walk home. put a smile on my face so that my parents wont be worry of my problems. but so? it still hurts inside.dear, can you stop ignoring me. D:
The sun rose @
1:57 AM