My Rants
Sunday, October 7, 2007
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hais, today was a mess. dear did call me this morning, and whatever we sae nearly coz us to quarrel. i'm not kidding, every sentence was a poteintial for us to quarrel. i don't know why, its seems that some how, i don't know her anymore. its like, i tried veri hard to listen to what she said and tried to reply what i heard. but it just came out, wrong. daamn !! whats wrong with me? i'm still me but i don't know what to do, like i used to do. had to end the conversation with her cause i had to go to eat. suddenly, i felt as if i went lucky then. if we continue tokin, we'll end up quarrelling. ): as usual i met her up, i walk passed her and i didnt see her. wad was i thinking about? i don't know, but its seriously huge that i can even missed seeing her. god !! went to play arcade then, was okay but still feel that weirdness, which i've nvr felt before. its seems that what we used to play was not as fun as that time lerhs. hais. adn ya, she did told me about my understanding problem. i don't know how to explain of course. do i reali don't know her anymore or am i just having a big listening problem? dear, i've been feeling very weird, its like that bland feeling came again. i know i still love you, but its just seems that you hate whatever i do. frustrated of what i said. D:you called. i stop playing my game, because i wanna tok to you. but it just went wrong again. i'm starting to lose it. its hurting terrible inside and i don't know how to help it. D:
The sun rose @
4:45 AM