My Rants
Friday, August 3, 2007
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Morning hais , everything i did was a disater . its getting from bad to worse today . i was so tired [mentally] ): my fist was hurting and my flu was irritating , but smth even worst was my heart . its was torn apart so badly i dun feel pain . after all the cryin i had yesterday , i felt numb . i didnt noe wad was goin wrong , everything seems unreal to me , coz its a world without u . soon after , realised that Jielin meii had been staring at me fer the whole morning and i went to ask her about dear .. she said that she could'nt tell me anithing about wad dear told her but could only sae that she's fine , i did in the end persuade her to sae . and thankfully , she told me . thanks meii !! i realised that our problem may be a huge misunderstanding // Recess hais , had only one sentece with her and after that , everything went back to the cold state . arghh , i'm so frustrated . when back to class and tried to focus on other things . Lunchmy lunch was'nt great . i was eating like i had to . no taste at all . juz eating fer the sake of eating . i tried to approach her straight after my last class . asked her whether she wanted to go down to lunch with me , but she didnt repli mi and i dunno why . D:guess today wouldnt come out to a good day either . sian . went fer cca later .CCA endedtried so so hard to look fer her so that i could offer to send her home and maybe we could calm things down , but i didnt see her at all . hais // Lucky mommentthank god , dear called me and we settled things out . phew // i realised that how much we've gone thru may seems unesscerssary , but it made me noe how much she was to me , re-assuring my love fer her . dear , iloveyou (: i'm sorry meii , kor du bu qi ni . i break my promise . but what u told mi made my thinking change , made mi noe what i'm supposed to do . thanks meii , sorry i've disappointed u once again . will u forgive me ?
The sun rose @
6:48 AM